|—||Lindy West (via fourstorytantrum)|
bad people shouldnt be allowed to have clear skin or good hair or nice jaw lines or green eyes
One of the main reasons embarassment is so powerful is because we replay it in our head over and over and allow that mean voice in our head to tell us mean things. Sometimes we have to tell the voices to shut up and get out.
I cry during sad movies. I cry when i’m really mad about something. But this time, i guess i cried because i was nervous. I was and still am so embarrassed. It made me look so unprofessional and like an amateur. I know it is a human signal to others of humility and vulnerability so that others can see something is up. But why did it have to happen at this moment, when i wanted to impress everyone. My speech coach, a judge, and most of the team saw me cry.
Now they saw my weakness so will anyone take me seriously? I usually dont have problems performing in front of people. I have been in speech tournaments, i preached in church, i sang in the school play. So this one time i let my nervousness eat me up and sike me out. I am so mad. Why now! The thing is, I was doing impromptu, which is a category where you write your own speech. So the words i was saying was mine, written by myself. Does this mean i don’t believe in the strength of my words?
If not for your wonderful works of fiction, i wouldn’t be half the person i am today. Your Junie B. Jones books brought me comfort in all of elementary school and lead me on my path to being different.